Did I just say that?

Ever say something and then go "OH CRAP...!". Yeah I do that all the time.

Tonight is a good example, I don't know what my deal was I just opened my bit trap and let the words fly. Poor Dan. Seems I can be quite the jerk now-a-days.

You ever notice how hard it is to pick on those that we are the closest too, or how easy it is to point out there flaws? Not that mine aren't as big as the nose on MY face, but you get the picture.

Lets just say, I was an ass tonight and Dan went to bed early. Poor dude. Guess I could blame it on the upcoming move and all the stupid packing we have to do this weekend. And of course its during the 4th of July. That sucks.

Ah well. Guess I'd better go appologize, or at least go to bed so it's not just 15 minutes before Kodi wakes up for her Midnight snack!

Here are some great pictures from today....Kodi was pretty fussy by the time Dan wanted to play with her. Otherwise we would have gotten some pretty good pics with her and him and their "hats" smiling. Enjoy.

New Apartment

So it's official (well so close...) we have found a new apartment or condo to move into.

Demi told us last week that she will be moving in with her Mom in her new house. Debi is getting married on July 4th, to a man named Ray. Apparently Demi and Ray's son will be officiating and Ray has a brand new house off Badger road in North pole approximately 7 miles from Fairbanks. I actually think it's pretty ironic that Debi is getting married (IE: getting hitched) on Independence day, but maybe it's just me. SO...since Demi is moving out we are free to shop for a 2 bdr place for Dan, myself and Kodi.

Which means...Kodi gets her own room! I'm pretty excited about that. It's about time to get her things set up and get all her clothes, diapers and baby stuff out of our already cramped closet. So now she's going to have her own place to store all her stuff. I'm super stoked about decorating and getting it ready for her. It's like we have our selves a "little family". I'm excited anyways.

Our new apartment is across town but a few miles closer to Kodi's care giver and my work place. So...hopefully that will save on fuel. The apartment is 2 bedrooms and 1.5 baths, it has a garage, a beautiful BIG kitchen with green granite counter tops, and hard wood floors on the main level. Then it has carpeted upstairs and 2 big bedrooms and the master / upstairs bath.

As it stands we will be acquiring a garage and a .5 bath for the same price of our old apartment and will just have to buy a stack-able washer and dryer and pay an extra $25 per month to have it in our unit. Other wise we'd have to pay $3.00 a load outside in the commons area. We even have a small deck and grassy area outside where we can relax, we just have to share it with the other neighbors. (we're on the end)

Anyways...I just pray everything works out. I think if our budget goes up at all it will just go up barely for laundry. But you figure if you buy a W/D and install it the electric we'd be using would be comparable to the amount we'd be saving by not having to plug our truck in all winter. Thank you Lord!

So I'm just praying that the Lord protects us and that we don't make any stupid decisions. Oh yeah....another plus...it's a secured building so you have to know someone to get in and then our front door locks as well, so it's pretty safe.

Needless to say I'm pretty happy.

Is it too long to weight?

okay. the first line doesn't make any sence...I was reaching okay?

So my thing is this. I just had a baby about 10 wks ago, wish I was smaller than what I am but I'm not. I'm ready to do what I normally would, you know low carb, induction. Hit the wagon rollin...but I was told I can't do that while breast feeding SO...I'm stuck for a while.

Still doing low carb just not as low as I want. I'm also slowing getting back into running, but that is taking a while since I'm still having issues from giving birth. (don't ask)

Anyways so I'm doing the best I can and hopefully I'll start losing the "baby weight soon". Lord knows that I'm ready.

Here's a picture for motivation...

"All about the looks"?

Okay so per my husband, he can't go anywhere unless he's showered, shaved, wearing "cool" clothes, and looking "good". According to him it's "All about the looks" and he wouldn't be caught dead just rolling out of bed without at least a hat to cover up his bed-head.

I've though a lot about this notion and have tried to figure out why he thinks this way. Dani tends to view things the same way as well. Demi and me though, we could roll out of bed throw on whatever (even if it's dirty...I know, I know...gross) and do what we need to do. Does this mean we're slobs? Well according to some, yes. But to most Alaskan's this is quite normal and you'd be really surprised to see people walking down the street in the weirdest outfits. IN FACT if you want some real entertainment wait till AUGUST and go the the fair!! I garentee some queer sites and you might even see a bunch of women (the HUGE ones) with no bras, nasty feet and looking like they had no clue why you are staring at them with this "oh-my-gosh" look on your face. Of course they don't care.

So I guess you could say we don't care, but at the same time I'll get dressed up on occasion and go out or surprise my boss at work. Most of the time it's followed by them saying "So...you have an interview today?" Ha ha.

Anyways my whole point of this ridiculous post is that I'm really interested to see how Kodi is going to turn out. She already gets a kick out of her Dad and loves to make faces at him and whine and grunt (when she should be in the swing sleeping) and Dad will jump right up and pick her up to calm her down.

Already wrapped around her little finger I tell ya!

And he wanted a boy....sheesh.

Graduation and life

Welp, Dani has finally graduated! Most would think that would spell the "end" for Dan, but NOPE he has one more to watch graduate! Ha!

So close but yet not....

Ha ha!! :) Dan loves her though.

Got some great pictures of Dani and the girls I'll post them here....(i'll have to post more later as the stupid server is busy!)

Wow! I think this parenting thing is under-rated, because it sure is fun!
We’ve been having tons of fun with Kodi, and more and more each day I enjoy just hanging out with my little “boo-boo” or “baby”. (psst…I rarely call her Kodi. Hopefully she’s not confused…. *wink*)

She loves playing with her toys and is getting very close to figuring out that her hands are actually connected to her body and that she can touch stuff with them! It’s pretty funny watching her figure it all out!

She is very strong! She loves “standing” (with mommies help) and doesn’t quite have the “newborn” shakes anymore. She’s also holding her head up marvelously, and is strong as an ox! I have to fight her each time she’s eating because she doesn’t know that her arms are attached so when she’s eating she likes to knock Mommie out of her mouth! I’ve tried to tell her over and over that it’s her that is actually making her self get mad! Ha ha!

I’m really enjoying having Dan home with us. It took a while to get used to because once he got home I realized that all of us sleeping in bed together was NOT going to work. Being SO hot now, and having a queen just makes sleeping arrangements HOT and sweaty. YUCK. The first night home was rough. Kodi wasn’t sure what was going on and why this big man was taking up her side of the bed. So she cried for most of the night, once I got her into her bed she was NOT happy about that. She couldn’t figure out why she was the one getting kicked out of bed. J Since then I’ve figured out a great way to get her to stay in her bed and she only wakes maybe once per night. She even sleeps for 6-7 hours straight! I’d say we are definitely blessed! Thank you Lord!
Unfortunately for Mommy, she has to get up and take care of Kodi’s “food” otherwise it’s all over the dang bed by the time she wakes up! J

Dan and I haven’t really had a chance to hang out with each other since his return home. It’s been a bit rough and I miss him. I know that sounds strange, but we’ve been in the same house now for one week but with the new little one, haven’t had any time for our selves. I think it took him 4 days or so (after returning home) to realize that I still lived there. He he. It was KODI-KODI-KODI. But I understand, I’m like that when I come home from work too….

YUP, I am back at work. Only 4 hours per day but still it’s more time away from Kodi than I want. I don’t feel so bad about it with Dan home watching her, I’m just worried how it’s going to be when I have to take her to my friends house. I’m still praying about that. I notice that the post-pardum depression still looms around me sometimes and I break down and cry for silly reasons.

My poor mother usually gets a call after this and has to calm me down and encourage me. I hope this ends soon!

Anyway just wanted to update everyone…. I have to say that I’m seriously enjoying my time as a Mom. It’s everything I thought it would be and more. I’m not sure if I’d want another baby. I know Dan does not, because he feels like he “is done”. And I’m not sure I’m willing to go through “it all” again. So we’re just “wading” through these feelings as they come. Kodi may just be the one and the only that I have. And at this point I think I’m okay with that.

Change in scenery.

Well I have to say quite a few things have changed since I've last updated you.

Oops sorry.

So my due date came and went (April 5th, 2008) and I became impatient with each day that passed. No, stupid people asking me if I'd "had the baby yet" or my favorite "you still pregnant??" Well DUH. I still have a HUGE basketball stomach (not really) so I guess I should say, "I HOPE SO." It's okay though, I get pretty sarcastic when I'm uncomfortable.

A week went by and still no baby, we had some contractions start up, but nothing significant. Amazingly to this point I still had-had no real problem with my back. Thank God! Even though the chiropractor told me I would. Again, THANK YOU GOD, and "I LAUGH in your general direction!!!". Yes devil I'm talking to you.

About this time, I decided I wanted to induce. I wanted Dan there with me because I wanted him to see his baby come into the world.

Day 8 - Over due

I called in to get a bed for induction. They couldn't get me in right then because all the beds were full for all the women who had already gone into labor. Lucky ....______.... anyways....

I started having some other symptoms that I wasn't sure of and around 2:00pm they told me to come in. They got me checked out and hooked up by 3:00pm I had the pitocin and the contractions started coming on. The kids showed up and around 4:40 or so my Mom showed up as well. I really didn't think about it much, but 4 people plus me and the occasional nurse in that room was a bit much. Okay I'm being conservative. It was WAY too much. Around 5pm the doctor showed up and broke my water, and then the contractions got really hard and heavy. (I didn't realize it at the time but the nurse kept turning up my pitocin, bad mistake.

Finally the contractions were getting to the point where they hurt like hell and my back was absolutely killing me. (back labor) My mom was rubbing my back and the kids were horsing around in the back ground. This was very hard to deal with, because not only did I have to not worry about 'mooning' everyone while laboring through my contractions, they were horsing around like they were having a sleep over. Not cool. At one point I yelled at them to "SHUT UP!". And they got up to leave the room. I talked with my Mom about what to do, it was horribly stressful having to deal with contractions and the distractions that were going on in the room. At one point Demi was asking me (during a contraction!!!) a home work related question!

(it wasn't until about a month later that I realized Demi's "coping" skill for being uncomfortable is saying WHATEVER comes to her mind, and I do mean whatever.)

Finally the contractions were so strong I was having a very hard time handling them and I though that I was going through transition. NOPE. I hadn't even dilated at all in the 3-5 hours I had been laboring. It was horrid. It was at that point that I talked about having the epidural. Because up to this point I hadn't dilated at all except 1 cm, and hadn't had any drugs at all. Dan said it would be a good idea. So we signed paperwork and they said, "okay the Dr. is here now, she'll be right in!". Okay. *whew* good deal.

YEAH OKAY. 1 hour later, she shows up and I'm freaking out because I think she's going to make me move during a contraction and I wouldn't be able to do it because of the massive pain. Well the Anesthesiologist was amazing, she waited for my contraction to stop and then she put the needle in. And for all those people out there that say the "epidural hurts like hell..." seriously. Do you think a splinter hurts like "hell"? The epidural was NOTHING.

She asked me if I felt better and I had another contraction, same pain but 1/2 as long as the ones before.

That was the last contraction I felt that night.

Next thing you know I couldn't feel anything from my waist down and I hadn't felt that good in a LONG time!! And I mean a LONG time, I was actually able to relax like before I gotten pregnant.

1 hour later, I dilated from 3-7 cm and then one hour later (after shakes and horrible itching) I was fully dilated. The nurse asked if I wanted to push, and I said, "well um sure, but I can't feel anything". She looked somewhat puzzled seeing I was 10 cm but said, "Okay then try to rest and let me know when you do."

About 15-20 min later I felt pressure and said i should probably start pushing. We pushed for about 15 minutes (after we completely grossed out both girls, um duh...) and the head started coming down. The nurse went to get my Dr. who by the way had 4 other patients all fully dilated like me, so he was running around pretty busy. He was however, rather calm actually very lackadaisical and relaxed. I kept pushing when I thought I should and she started coming out. At one point they could see her head and I saw the look on Demi's face, it was priceless. I don't think she knew it was going to be like that but figured it out in the end.

Finally she says, "Oh it's got to come out THAT hole?!? It's only this big (motioning the size of an silver dollar)" Just what I want to hear right? I said "Demi, what the frick hole did you think she was going to come out of??!!!" Few minutes later Dan leans over and says "Honey, you need to push HARDER." And I looked at him with a puzzled look saying, "what the frick do you think I'm doing?!" Quite funny actually.

So anyways after 30 minutes of pushing, out she came. 7 lbs 7 oz and 21 inches long. She had some really DARK black hair and was absolutely beautiful! We named her Kodi Anne Wilson (after her cousin Hayley Anne, who died a few years ago)

She's 9 weeks old tomorrow and I'm so amazed at how she has grown. She has a healthy mix of both sisters, a LOT of her Dad and a taste of me! ;) We're certainly having fun!