Realizations

You know what? Sometimes it takes us a long time to realize something, but once we do it's like this HUGE light bulb comes on in our heads and everything makes sense. 

I'm not saying that everything I do it right, quite the contrary in fact. But sometimes understanding the way that we "tick" and learning to roll with the punches makes all the things in the world make a bit more sense.

Sometimes I don't understand why I do stuff that seems completely idiotic and most people look at me like I'm crazy. I may handle things in a somewhat idiotic way for the majority of the time, but that's simply how I've learned to handle things and in some crazy way it's "working for me". 

It may not be working for everyone else, in fact, everyone else may thing I'm being a jerk or being "unreasonable" but in my mind my actions reflect my feelings and are justified.

I'm not saying that I don't need to change, and that there aren't things in my life I regret and wish I could change, I'm just saying that sometimes REALIZATION is the step the recovery.

And people saying that no matter what we do, or how we act, they'll still love us. And that in hard times they won't leave us or say they've "had enough". Trust me I'm sure we've all been there. 

Life goes on. Forgiveness asked for, hopefully received, and bridges mended.

And for all the blessings I have in my life I am thankful. Lord, for all the things I rarely say thank you for, I'm sorry. You are SO good to me, and you are so forgiving. 

Without You, I'd be sunk.